Going Home: five minutes one second ( ~For HR ~) LO24908

From: ACampnona@aol.com
Date: 06/17/00


Replying to LO24815

Dear Ray and fellow learners,

Thank you.

What? Half my life ago I came upon the remaining soul of a stranded dying
whale on the Atlantic coast and I stood and sat awhile with him/her at the
very edge of 'his' ocean and in perfect silence saved the noise of its
waves. Form more beautiful that any imagined content, for me. How can I
know beyond my feelings? Never mind, never mind. Years after I made a
series of images that seemed to me then pointless, linear notations
horizontal in the main self set in fields layered over washes of white
pigment, then again, layer upon layer secreted there. Oceanic whale gift,
song of his/her silence welled up. Now long gone whale and song until I
received a 'file' from Leo that did not convert to a picture but came as
implicate code, taking this noise I secreted it layer upon layer and
re-created in a newly emerged field unknown then the same essential song,
'deep song'. I made that song into some tiny wave packets through electric
understanding, mine. Leo knows what I mean. The first true poet of a new
placespace, quietest soul among noisynoiseless souls then, a
protopoetnonetheless and nonethemore before nevereveragain so the whale
sang me. And you teach me then good all you know poets of the new
millennium, you are allonewithme and I do not have to be here to become
that.

(Do not stop to tell me about the quality within your hollow silences,
rather show me what you can make out of it.)

Outside of 'needs' and 'wants' the image becomes;
"Lesson ;-) the needs to increase the deeds",
Ever wondering if 'there is no solution because there is no problem';
But then how to remain as among listed;-( 'Multi-professional' problem
solvers in such a perpetuating modeled wordyworld?
Not my problem do I share with you?
'Reason to learn from me', beautiful contradicto in adjecto
No reason ever learned much from a fool like me; unless of course he/she
secretly sought a guru?
Current feedback ~~~~~~~ may not be a reliable guide to future performances.

That Ray, is the best as shortest I can offer after respectful
consideration to your looselycoupledquestions;-)

Recent talk I hear here of the value of 'respectful silence' attached to
dialogue but (somehow) I just hear here a 'disrespectful' silence from
these whisper's. Otherwise I say share with me in public dialogue then the
practiced benefits of your silence techniques and I will learn with you to
deepen it or surface with you what it might contain. Let us see who
responds with 'open' mind or heart to my begging for a master herein.
Well, sensing the 'whispering voice' I could offer narrative the more
about listening with whales, listening with the dying and attending to the
pre-figuring 'oceanic silence' that is part/parcel of my peculiar
lexicography all but unheard here? But such questions come from other
equally grander quiet souls than mine or yours (not addressing you here
Ray;-) and they seem to be whispering to me, 'deeper, further and on.' I
could for example, in some simpler expressing of the practice that is my
specially loved 'art' facilitate a delta of unreasoned reasoning from the
deepest cut channels of needs and wants that cut through the quick to a
slow that makes even the 'boiled frog' look like a determinedly hurled and
leaping lemming.

I could in 'utter silence' bring forth from the void of silences with/held
explicate an implicate deep song of unison, wherein fragments mean nothing
and everything, and through many unbeliever convolutes of both 'knowing'
and 'not knowing', giving and taking, additions and subtractions,
divisions and multiplication, uncurl new sight might we be gained of how
very 'holographic' is 'noisewithsilence' combined in complex variety so
sunk in background it becomes emergent foreground by some back-door and
broken paradigms freely scattered about the 'living room' (Eco) floor are
the very building blocks for the new paradigms that may become albeit
sobeit if softly made sufficient to a warping future as 'absolute' free
gifts born of freeenergy to the children with whom among whom we might
more properly kneel to play than to the Sengian guru figures who withhold
as much as they give the better to coil the inner springs of self
determination to which they too, even now in our greatest needs and wants
are still entitled to withhold.

For four years, which is no time at all I have waited to read another's
expression of what I might be,'up to here.' I found these words that I
will attribute to no-one since for what it is worth to anyone else or not
it is time to say loud as I can, Learners is it a good time to stop
'owning' words and 'owning' genes and 'owning' information and 'owning'
water and 'owning' air and trying to 'own' and inadvertently enslave the
most beautiful 'free' creation in the known cosmos, the genius sitting
with each of you?

I wish to sit and dialogue with those who sense however gently and
uncertainly that it is a fitting time to engage in a bringing forth of a
new world through the very living of it.

I have beside me an image that is packed with human energy, I could no more
describe it fully in a thousand pages than I could a paisley tie if I were to
give it the attention it deserves and I desire. How about this though --
Fluid brush calligraphy on yellow paper swooping top left to bottom right ,
streaming words loosening blue throughinto green
'waterweeds~waving~in~the~water' ____ to a red/written underneath_____
'appeals-to-me'
What I would call joineduplearningexpressing! What'd'ya'thinkfolks? I felt
in the silent solemn presence of a personality moving on through 'current
reality' to 'personal vision' shared deep and held up now for a different,
free, open-ended caring sharing. Me, a 'poet' and 'artist'? Not in the
company I keep.
Continually lost and found, I for the looking see the whale song in you all.
It sang, "Please, let me simply be."

Best today,

Andrew

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ACampnona@aol.com

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